You Mean I'm NOT Superwoman??

(A continuation of my last post…)

Not to burst my own bubble or anything, but I’m really NOT Superwoman.  That sucks.  All this time I thought I could do anything and everything all at the same time and never bat an eyelash…

I’ll be the first to admit that I put a lot on my plate all the time and usually forget to make a space on that plate for myself.  I am always doing, being, or working for someone else.  As a mom, I’m always doing for my son, as a student I’m always doing for my teachers (although school is for myself but it’s very demanding), and as an employee I’m always doing for my boss.  Pretty much I don’t have time to just “do” for myself which is not a good thing.

As you probably already know from reading my post, Enablers and the Addicts Who Make Them, I have had to put on my strong face many times in the past and the way that I did that was to keep myself ridiculously busy so that I didn’t have time to think about what was going on at home.  What you didn’t get from that post is that I have been going it alone as a married-single mom for the last 3ish years while my husband serves the sentence received for his conviction.  So, to recap, I’m a full-time mom, full-time student, and basically full-time employee…this is where my superwoman complex comes in.

I keep my strong face on all the time and just bulldoze my way through any obstacle life throws at me…most of the time.  Unfortunately, there are those rare occasions when even I break down and realize that I can’t be strong for everyone all the time.  I hate those times.  I hate feeling weak and vulnerable and having doubts that I can do everything I have committed to.  I’m not a complainer so when things start to get rough, I just keep them in and deal with them.  I know there are plenty of other people out there with much harder circumstances than me so I don’t feel that I have the right to complain.  After all, I CHOSE my circumstances.  I chose to stick by my husband, I chose to return to college…these were my choices to make so I don’t complain about the outcomes I get from them.

Luckily for me, I have a loving supportive husband and the best friends and family a girl could ask for who will always lend me their ears to vent to and/or shoulders to cry on.  They remind me that it’s okay to take my game face off every now and then and just do for myself for a while.  It’s amazing how recharged you feel after a nice long talk with a good friend or after stealing some of your time back from everyone & everything that takes it from you.  It’s like being in a torrential rainstorm with clouds as black as night and then all of a sudden, the sun breaks through and the rain goes away J

So, I leave you with this thought for the day: You can please everyone sometimes and someone every time, but you can’t please everyone all the time.  Embrace the imperfections and disappointments that come your way and learn from them.  Make the choice to LIVE your life regardless of the circumstances you are handed and don’t forget to keep some of your precious time for yourself every now and then!